Beyond Existentialism

Words are just loud thoughts. Thoughts require thinking. Thinking promotes reason. Reason is an attempt to justify our existence, of which there is no justified reason. Reason is subjective supposition, arbitrary and flawed. It is related to the constant of change, evolution and the trickery of thought.

The true essence or enity that I am needs no rationalization. If I am, only because I think I am, then to try and rationalize the reason that I am becomes unreasonable. So, I adopt a philosophy, usually based on what others have told or educated me, in an attempt to placate the fear and angst of not knowing who I am or what I am doing here. I may just be or I may adopt some cause or REASON to justify my existence and to cover the emotions of anxiety, dread, death and meaninglessness.

The true me, the I am, is not of this world. This is not its true home. The minds dishonest quest to convince it of such only confuses reality. We are told something is a "word", we believe it. This becomes part of our belief system. It is only a belief and is subject to change or re-definition. I am a doctor, lawyer, artist. These are "what I do", not who I am! I am a Catholic, Jew, Muslim.
These are only belief systems, not who you are!

If I "think" I am, then I doubt that I am. My true idenity needs no thought (justification). It is or it is not but it cannot "not be" We will BE whether we want to or not. I am in spite of my thoughts. My choice is to think or not and/or react. This is the absurd folly of this existence. We create reason when there is none. We play this "life game" on several levels with such serious intent but in the end, here, we may become someones thought or a number/name written down.
We laugh, we cry ,we kill ,we lie. We hear, we speak, we touch, we taste. We sense that we are only visitors, actors upon a stage, playing our parts and waiting for the "final curtain". Cannot we be, content to be?
Richard Lynn Livesay(or not) 2004